I have a long documented history of insomnia… Averaging a couple of hours a night is not new to me, I’m used to being a bit shortchanged but combine that with jetlag from a jaunt to Seattle and i’m currently unbearable to be around. The Seattle trip was because aforementioned ex-father-in-law was given a few days to live instead of the ‘possibly a few months let’s see how it goes’. Cue a mad rush to book tickets and go over and show some support.. Was a first time trip to the US for the fella, so made sure we did all the touristy things that you would do in Seatown whilst trying to provide an emotional crutch for the ex-hubby, who’s father died while we were there. There was a very bizarre Easter Sunday moment of me, my fella, the ex and his gf, an ex ‘friend with benefits’ of the hubby, the ex-brother-in-law and various offspring.. whilst it started off a little strained we did actually end up having a really good day – thankfully!
But I digress – this started on insomnia. The jetlag going over to the US wasn’t too bad, but coming back was horrendous. I planned on going into work the next day when I got back.. EPIC FAIL. I slept for about 18 hours and STILL felt tired.. It’s now been a week since i’ve returned and I STILL feel tired. I’m also struggling each night to actually get off to sleep.. the legs go restless, I go hot and cold, and I end up going through my ‘reboot’ routine more than a few times (this involves getting up, going for a wee, cooling down my feet and then coming back to bed and reading my kindle for a few minutes..
I’m out of ideas as to how to stop this. I’ve tried taking an antihistamine based sleeping aid – whilst it made a difference on one night (couldn’t open eyes, kept walking into doors / walls / everything, didn’t know where I was half the time) last night it didn’t do a damn thing. At 01:30 I was still attempting the re-boot and getting frustrated because it wasn’t working.. For me to function the next day I need at least 6 hours – anything less and there will be issues. For example – today I feel like a complete space cadet, I am struggling to focus, and this blog will probably be utter chaos. And that’s not even mentioning the typos that my OCD fingers are having to correct whilst putting this together.. be grateful this isn’t live because you would be scratching your heads and saying ‘huh??’
::a brief pause while I break for lunch / a walk around Canary Wharf.. yeah I know, you don’t really care..::
My brain is that boggled that I have completely lost my train of thought. So i’ll end with a few pics from the Seattle trip instead cos I have no idea what the hell i’m actually talking about any more…